Friday, November 28, 2003

PASSION

Finding my passion has been a difficult journey and one that I am still struggling with. When I was young I felt passion in the outdoors, sports, and just be alive and part of life. As I have grown older, I felt passion in success and being good at things, and making money. Now I feel something nagging at me. This nag is persistant especailly when I allow myself to slowdown enough to hear it. It is my inner voice. My inner voice has learned to sign its own song, even when the outside world is singing another.


Do something you are passionate about! Is what I hear it saying. The voice of seduction lies behind it saying "play it safe" you got a good life why mess it up? Yet, lately I have stumbled on reading obituaries, and it reminds me at the end of the my days what is it I want to be able to know about myself?


What I do know is that I want to be able to say "I wan't afraid", "I was passionate", "I LIVED LIFE". I don't feel those things right now. I feel that my free spirit has been chained. Yet, I feel directionless to change it.


How..? How do I get my passion back?


According to Oprah here is how I find "my passion"


Step One: Get Quiet.
For most people, the road to connecting with passion begins with practicing good self-care. This means slowing down, spending time with yourself, taking good care of your body and mind, nurturing your spirit, and engaging in activities that will move you out of your head and into your body.

Once you become passionate about your self-care, you'll know you're on the right track.


Step Two: Become Sensitive to Your Environment.
Once you're more connected to your feelings, you'll be ready to do a little exploring to discover the specific, personal things that best ignite your passions. Spend one week paying close attention to what excites you, touches you, inspires you to think in a whole new way, or even frustrates you. Watch for clues. Stories in newspapers, programs on television or conversations with friends may give you an indication of those things that will lead you to your passions.

Step Three: Answer a Series of Questions.
What interest, passion or desire are you most afraid of admitting to yourself and others?
What do you love about yourself?
Who do you know that's doing something you'd like to do? Describe yourself doing it.
How could you make the world a better place for yourself and others?
What's stopping you from moving forward with exploring your passion?


Step Four: Go on a Treasure Hunt.
Go on a treasure hunt in your own home. The things you hold onto can provide clues to your interests and passions.Do you make connections to old pictures? A special memento from a memory that means something to you? How does what you find make you feel about yourself and your dreams?


Step Five: Take a Risk.
Stop thinking about your passions and start doing something. Take a risk, and step out to try something new. By challenging your fear with action, you'll not only raise your self-esteem, you'll expand your comfort zone. If you're not sure of what to do, ask a trusted friend or partner for ideas. Remember that good luck happens when you're in action. And, if you try something new (even if you're not sure of the outcome), you may discover a passionate interest by accident!

FUTURE and PAST

How have my parents' expectations affected my choices?
money

What are my assumptions about money?
if I do what I love I will be poor

With whom should I surround myself?
People with similar interests

How much power does my environment have over me?
Too much

How have I been trapped by success?
if I leave I will be poor

Am I willing to spend years before letting my dream manifest itself?
no

What assumptions did I make when I was young about what I'm good at or not good at?
robots, sports

Am I afraid of looking inward?
no

Am I willing to spend years looking for an answer?
no

What am I naturally curious about?
people, robots, education

Saturday, November 22, 2003

THE MEATRIX

THE MEATRIX

A must see site......:)

Friday, November 21, 2003

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MUSIC

NEWEST

Are You Happy Now -Michelle Branch

Can't Let You Go -Fabolous Ff/Lil Mo

Crazy In Love -Beyounce'

Don't Wanna Try -Frankie J

Feel Good Time -Pink F/William Orbit

Girls and Boys -Good Charlotte

I Want You -Thalia F/Fat Joe

Ladies -Sarai

Magic Stick -Lil' Kim

Right Thurr-Chingy


TOP 10
Rock Wit U-Ashanti

In da Club-50 Cent

Hey Sexy Lady-Shaggy f. Brian

Hailies Song-Eminem

Girls and Boys -Good Charlotte

Crazy In Love -Beyounce'

Cameltoe -Fannypack

Big Machine-Goo Goo Dolls

Big Girl-Angela Ammons

All For You-Janet Jackson

Thursday, November 20, 2003

HexCrawler Robot

This is the type of robot that I plan to build. If you haven't guessed I am a robotics enthusiast. I always have been but never thought nor understand how to take it to the next level of doing.

The HexCrawler robot is built on a CrustCrawler-designed high-quality aluminum chassis that provides a sleek platform for the 12 servo motors and control system. The HexCrawler is only offered in the full kit so you can get started with the BS2-IC, Board of Education and 2 Mini SSC's. Mounting holes and slots may be used to add custom robotics equipment. It's large size and generous number of expansion slots can accommodate a considerable amount of additional electronics and hardware upgrades. CrustCrawler now offers the Sensor Scanning System (S3) so you can overcome the limitations of "fixed" sensors.

Thursday, November 13, 2003

Carpe Diem..

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

Everyday we are presented with choices. Sometimes these choices are what type of clothes to wear, sometimes these choices are "life or death", and sometimes these choices are quality of life choices. I often refer to the later as "high society" choices. I am grateful that many of my choices today are "high society".